Chris Harrison is finally telling all.
I was mad at myself.
I was disappointed in myself.
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But for my part in this, I was sick, sick to my stomach.
I lost 20 pounds.
I was scared to death.
The host said he understood that if I apologized, we would be able to move forward.
And Ive never seen a time like that in my life, Ive never known that not to work.
If you sincerely apologize and open your heartand it was just like yelling in a cave, Harrison recalled.
It just didnt matter.
It didnt move anything and it didnt move us away from what had just happened.
So even after that apology, we were still at ground zero.
And it was confusing and it was scary.
Im not saying theyre full of shit, but theyre not great.
I realize the ratings are down 50 to 60 percent and the show has changed dramatically, he said.
But also that hurts me a little bit because its something I took pride in building.
I thought that was kind of the easiest call since Ken Jennings got theJeopardyjob.
Hes in the family, everybody loves him.
It just seemed like a lay-up.
But thats not how it went down.
Harrison said he even went so far as to privately tell Adams: I hope you get the job.
This post was originally published inVanity Fair.
